every child's frustration

      It's really frustrating when you do not get what you really wanted.  Others say that you have everything.  On the contrary, there is one simple thing I've been trying to get all these years.  It's the one thing I'm hungry of.  I'm jealous of all those children whose parents are always there on their side.  Appreciating their every little achievements and encouraging them to do more.  I know my parents are busy with their work.  If I could only buy their time.  But I guess, it's quite impossible.  It's been more than a decade.  Nothing changed.  I was just wondering.  If ever I'll get the attention I wanted, would I still be happy?  I got tired waiting and exerting effort for them just to appreciate me.  I think it's hopeless.  I wish I could find someone who will truly appreciate me.  Someone who will appreciate me not just because of my brain nor my beauty (as if I'm beautiful) but just because for simply being who I am and what I am.  I feel so alone in this big world.  But I know God is always there for me. :)